_Thursday, January 29, 2009
I had my chance to go to Qatar this evening and I lost it! All thanks to my aunt! DHL was looking for someone to go to Qatar to hand carry a parcel. The moment I heard it, i wanted to go. So I raised my hands. Everything was settled! I even got my mom's permission. So they asked me for my credit card no. I called my aunt and she started screaming, saying that I am a girl and that is so far away. She didn't let me talk, CONVINCED her that it would be alright! And of course, she ended the conversation by hanging up the phone on me! I was very upset. When
I called my mom again, she said she will talk to my aunt. Hoping against hope, I waited for my mom's call. When my mom called me back, she told me to tell my boss that I cannot go! Disappointment wrapped me. I was devastated. I had no choice but to tell my boss that I can't go. So malu!! I wanted to cry right there and then!
So I went home and straight to bed. I was awaken by some vibration and realized that my phone was vibrating. There was a miss call from my aunt and a message. You know what? In the msg, my aunt said to come to her house to get the credit card if I want to use it. What the hell kan?
The reason why I have a credit card is that it will be easier for me to travel. That was why she applied for me a supplementary holder. Now, the opportunity came and she was against it.
What is the point of you giving me the leisure of life when I cannot use it?! You gave me the link for a better life and I appreciate that. But you have no right to control my life. I am coming to 24 years old and I have no achieve anything at all. Even if it for a little while, it will mean a lifetime of memories for me to just go there. I don't mind if it is somewhere nearby. But this is Qatar, a place where I never even dare dream of going and I got the chance now! But everything is ruin.
You have destroyed the confidence that I have.
Penned on @ 9:51 PM
