_Monday, October 27, 2008
Me: Hey sayang...next weekend wanna do that facial thing at simei?
Kaori: Ok, sat and sun both available.
Me: Ok great...I need to make it up to you for giving you a bit of cold shoulder last week...
Kaori: Haha, you kno, everyone kinda realized that you are giving me a cold shoulder. But I just want you to know that even tho I have a bf now, you are one of my best friend in Singapore and I don't jeopardize my friendship for him. Let me know when when you wanna have coffee no matter what time it is!!
Kaori is among one of my single friend who recently got hooked up. And I guess I was in denial. Everyone has a boyfriend. Apart from Myn and Sam, who make time for me, Kaori is available 24 hours. And when I say 24 hours, I mean 24 hours. She and I share things that's not meant to be heard by others. We share same emotions about general things. So naturally, I was disappointed that she's now attached. Yet again, another friend of mine is attached. So what's new???
For the past week, I have been giving a cold shoulder to Kaori without realising it. I don't even know why. It's not that I'm upset that she's attached. In fact, I am happy for her. But I couldn't help thinking that I have lost a friend. I kept thinking that she might not have time for me now that she has Allan. I hate the fact that most of my friends have no time for me. I was just plain sad you know.
But over the weekend, I thought thing thru and I realized how selfish I am. I can't expect them to stay with me always. I can't have them by the phone, picking up the moment I call. I cannot believe how selfish I am.
So today, I text Kaori to 'book' her this weekend for our facial thing. And thank god, she agreed. This experience taught me not to be selfish and Insya'allah, I will be a better person. A msg to all my friends.
As mush as it hurts me to admit this, I am so very sorry for giving you
guys the cold shoulder whenever you guys cannot make it to any of my plan
outings. I need to understand that, for once, you guys have a whole other world
apart from ours. I promise. I won't be a bitch if you guys can't make time for
me. Love you all!!!
Penned on @ 3:41 PM
